On my birthday.....2009

meaty me!......

am i happy???...sort of..cos is my birthday !.. present from hubby........................................

was so busy doing my house work, my brother came over to my house to send me a dvd show his personal show!...he doesn't know is my birthday, after finish the show i cook a light meal for him...and later hubby came home early noon, the whole feeling change ~ that he still did the same old pattern again, no wishing , no even glance at you, just sit relax next hv his lunch and watch movie, honestly i did not felt any special birthday mood ..as well I'm not so happy..cos is my birthday! yet not even a soul wishing me '' happy birthday'' in the home.Next in the late evening we hv a fuss!...before going out for my birthday dinner, hubby tried to pls me by serving my aunt well and hv a good communications with my brother too..except me i just cant talked to hubby much.

Hubby apologise to me for his mistake's and negligence.. finally when all my birthday dinner is over~ fine dinner and is nice to sit with my family together to celebrate my birthday!..we laugh and talked the whole night tru!..finally, back home we hv an argument again..but end with talking my heart out, i felt like leaving him for good, i did told him that...hubby beg me to forgive him, forgive him and forgive him..

next..day again he did not went to work but cook for me mee suah and bought me another birthday cake ...he said in US still is 22ND sept!!!..mmm..another present! ..a gold chain ..? but i reject it i told him you already bought me a orchid gold pendant.. i don't need GOLD ..i need a heart :~).. later we went to hv dinner in the evening and end up with this cool~~~PIX S630 Nikon ..he brought me to a gold smith shop instead i pull his hand away from the shop, is too expensive!!! i don't need that..and happen to pass by the camera shop..glance at the cool pix..hubby pull my hand inside the shop..

Anyway to let him feel better!..just accept his gift, so ...just see whether he kept to his promise...change his attitude..heart is valuable then anything in the world to me in a marriage...or else is meaningless ....gifts are material...cant buy real contentment at all.