So nice her voice..so gentle Teresa & Choi Siu Foong songs so good

Mother Love Father So So Much ...Father Also Love Mother Very Very Much..

and I love bothof you forever and ever...

 

Zoe like my Sis a lot...

Zoe really love to have my sis in our home stay during her last visit...Zoe will climb on my sis lap and love to asked her carry her all the time, i can sense Zoe really have a good click with my Sis, when Sis leave  ...Zoe look so sad for 2 days...i wonder what is in her little mind?#*@???I have never see her like that before for the past 5 over years! for a short period of time together with my Sis , Zoe will miss my Sis so much... and behaved so emotionally . I think Zoe will be happy that i put this picture on my Diary Blog...: ))

Smooth Valentine and a Smooth straight hair

Hubby did all to light up this Valentine, he went around the town to shop for something special but end up FUNNY..well, I'm very happy inside not that he tried to shop something special for me but because he used his effort to do something for his wife hoping to make her happy on this special day...that is the fire in him '' Love''..."Benny thanks for the thoughtfulness you have  in not only this Valentine but all the past Valentine", nobody is perfect but is just a little thoughts that make so much differences sometimes.

Have a good hair done..straighten it back to my formal hair style, which i used to have for 20 years.the same hair '' straight''..still cannot get used to curly or permed hair, just permed for around one month really still not used to it...now i feel so light and easy to managed again! hahahha there is a saying in Chinese ...'' A dragon bed can not fight with my dog house'' meaning when one is so used to her style , glamour change dont necessary will really give you that good feeling as the thing that one so used to all the time...comfortable : ))

                         my favourite dish ...

                                                   


                                                Benny unique handwriting...

All for the purpose of ''LOVE'' .....

...''am i insane or something wrong with me???'' it was hard decision for me at that moment, let's save  a life first then let see what takes place next, most important save first...actions speak louder than word's if Love without action's then is ''DEAD''. She shall be called '' Lucky'' , to me she is very lucky as God have past her to me as her Guardian. If someone very keen and will take good care of her i will give it to that person but if my sense said no~ then no way.Raining very heavily that day, while i was driving i saw a LITTLE dog alone by the road side splash by the heavy rain on her FACE ...sad and confused as she have just been abandon by someone she trusted! i mean her owner...during a heavy down pour. She waited at the same spot where her owner abandon her just...even when the rain was so heavy then she refused to walk away...when i found her so pitiful on the spot where she refused to leave even with such heavy rain, i took her home with me...me also whole body wet because i need to get down from my car and i open my arms to her, immeiately she walked to me slowly and sadly...somehow i have very strong compassion for her, '' Lucky'' with a locket on her neck still ...i called up the security post to let them know i found a puppy, in case someone look out for her...after 3 days no one came i confirmed the spot i saw Lucky was actually the place she have just been abandon probably, that no wonder she didn't want to go away even when the rain was so heavy then, Benny don't accept Lucky in the beginning..he even thrown  Lucky out when she bark ..it hurts me badly, he went to search her back for me and God is the decision maker...HE send back Lucky to me!God is great.

Benny also save a cat not long after i save '' Lucky'' ... he found the cat in front of my office, this kitten left leg fractured.and no energy at all..now he is fully recovered! active  THEN A Tarzan .. I think God want us to do something for this poor animals..from a kind of burden in the begin... into fun fun Shelter of LOve :) Lucky she will get very jealous if we let the cat out from the cage and if we let Lucky out the cat will go like Tarzan and ngiaW!!! I still prefer Lucky...she is more close to me. Anyway ..both also i will take care..Happy Valentine to all that need's LOVE...

How I wish...

 all my sisters can always embrace each other with Love. I love all my sisters a lot, ...but sometimes cant help it ..things just don't turned out right when self centered took place, the demon devil immediately took charge over  our emotion and pride, the devil came to destroy, to steal away one happiness and also to kill (various relationship, life, your love and many more..).is written in  the Bible very clearly. How i wish we don't behave this way, but as innocent and caring like  a heart of a child...whenever we have a chance to be together, love and cherish each other, as we may not always have a chance to meet or gather again, no one knows what going to take place tomorrow, right?
As all of us are not young anymore but not old either, we should be closer and cherish the togetherness. The  best memory i ever had is with my Father and Mother..the unconditional love they have for all of us, the never complained... of tired, the good food that i always remember my Mother used to prepared and the smile of my father when he reached home from work, he will always leave some extra coins in his pocket for me to take : ) all this small things became an everlasting memory for me.

As things may not be beautiful as we wish sometime's,  ...i can only care and love  for my sister in my heart... and always, as nothing can steal this bond away when God is the one that created it.

Birthday greeting from hubby..

Osim leg massager for my aching foot, when walk too long..good give from hubby ..my Birthday!

..many many thanks ..is funny! the end words, cause im so meaty now , do i still look sexy huhahuha....!

Birthday Greeting from my dear 3rd Sis ..mei

Just looking at it make's me happy,

I decided to scanned and kept forever all the wonderful as well the thoughtfullness  from loving people around me and beside me, everything.. from taking their time to search a beautiful greetingcard for me and the thought's especially ..many many thanks for all the love...i will alwayssss  cherish...also the money inside ...i truly enjoyed a very good seafood treat from my sis...'' so far yet so near''.

Hope My dream will come true..

for me , i really wish to own a nice , warm and comfortable restaurant . Not long ago when i traveled to Penang, we went to a house single storey ...near ferinngi area.They served nyonya and other spicy as well as chinese food..aircondition and non aircondition, i really like it so much that i hope one day i can have a place like that for business too:)D this place seems very diffrent from any other restaurant, is not too big but very nice ..when you enter is like enter to a very nice comfortable home.

On my 5th marriage..

anniversary we went up to K.L. on the 9th .On the11th, June is our wedding annuversary, we went to shop around sungei wang area ..i traded in my old 916 gold pendant so dont need to pay so much...for a gold chain..small one lah ..but this one is 999 gold , so a little diffrent lah...(that is my gift from hubby), see save 794 RM for him cos i traded in my old 916 gold pendant to the gold shop next just paid 704 Rm only as the total amount is RM 1,498..honestly i like the chain alot..small one..i wear it on the spot.

Later we went for a very simple dinner..sad to said ...is the worse dinner i ever had in my life...the restaurant is Rasa Sayang Sharkfin house..in imbi road k.L...the dish there is no good and no quality at all...oh! the next table Chinese man around late 30's..talked so loudly and boast a lot too ... not forgotten the price definately SHARK!!! run fast...the next time u spot this place...maybe u can try this restaurant..then u know what i mean...

Deep down i wished he will give a loving card and have a quiet nice place for dinner, well maybe this is how when we are married for 5 years..hmmm but he is very nice to me after all.

.....ehmmm

just for the first time in my life,I'm so proud of myself and for the first time i really felt so,not for any great contribution to society or what, but i have for the first time make up my mind and bravely embrace the biggest break through in my life, that is contribute my love to my health..also '' Thank you to my dearest friend ..beloved Holy Spirit Of God''...I finally make IT!!!!!! no more suffering now..i earned a lot of freedom! yesss. i will reject it for the rest of my life no matter what is going to happen.

This morning..i have an urged to eat ipoh uncle laksa, went out to pack home to enjoy..

Life is beautiful .....from the moment we

wake up..Thanks God, everything we wish and we can have it..is already another very wonderful blessing's ..to me personally. .that is my own way of happiness. After had my wonderful breakfast ...read my news paper ...then have a good shower ..going to my office ..feeling real good, going to work knowing the joker drama~ Chairman, in the office is so fun!heheh ..he really a very very good joker that can make you laugh till your lung come out!really. I have a real good laugh till almost cant breath today in my office.

is miracle..nothing is impossible for the person who have faith..

today is 05th of May 2011 , is the 20th day now, from 16th April 2011. Im glad in my faith and persistence.There are some trill on and off not so often now as im so busy with my office worked lately... is good . ..for me in a way :) but certain time it did kick back to my thoughts especially at home a lone :((
I believe everything ..will be possible for anyone of us that have strong faith inside him or her :)
Thanks God .

Im so glad i made it to now...hope it will last forever..

Now and now i want to celebrate my success at least for now i made it till now...I give glory to Holy Spirit Of God HE fight it with me!!! I felt better and sleep well now . I visited my doctor today he said my hormone is weak! i got a shock! the doctor asked me to take femoston...he said it will make me feel a lot better and look so young and lovely..i have a feeling not to take it, cos i dont feel old and I'm not afraid of aging ..most important is joy and love ...if my hormone really low then let it be ..my mother dont need hormone pill...

i decided to embrace changes gracefully and happily, eat healthy and be cheerful..

Before i end my post...I thanks to The Holy One & Myself ..WE MAKE IT!!! I leave this bondage!!! my 23.5 years bondage!!! yahooooo! IS MIRACLE...I Believe.

Embracing a sudden decision .. .

I have been in it for 23.5 years..on the 16.th April 2011, i got so fed up with it, i flung it out of my life..but i encountered a lot of challenges for this few days ...especially the 1st and 2nd day ..uhhh is killing me...ahhh!!! night and morning..
Today everything seems quite ok but not better ..also not feeling well..but not very bad like on the 16th! 17!...

lets see how i will make it...for good or for worse????

Valentine 2011 Diary

On Valentine day...14/02/2011 ~2.30 am I was shock by hubby as he was not feeling well 2 days ago, i love hygiene and cleanliness...he sweat heavily and it irritates me as i could felt something sweating beside me...suddenly i woke up...and get very irritated cause i have told hubby 2 days ago i clean the bed , blanket and ext...till almost drop dead b'cos of his fever sweat and he promised me he will shift to the next room if it ever occur again ...but he did not. So he got very angry of my respond when i said '' what is this ..again'' on my side i have to go work and my daily house cleaning have already make me half drain...so plus another + i felt stressful. He went slept next room after our argument and for me i felt hurt, as i felt that he did not think of my tiredness of cleaning the home and took so much of my time each day. I went to sleep again after he change the blanket and everything on the bed to a all clean newly wash bed set. I felt dry and clean ...on the bed, cant think much as I'm already very sleepy at this type of hour...

when i woke up in the morning, i asked myself few question...am i in the wrong or not? of what happened at 2.30 am morning..naturally i felt I'm at the wrong in certain way...i shouldn't have raised my voice at him..as he doesn't want this to happen too but deep down i felt that when he got angry with me ...he too lack of something..''understanding.''

My office colleague asked me ...any celebration? I told him hubby have bought a very beautiful handbag which i like it very much ..from Singapore 2 weeks ago is my advance Valentine gift, which is true,'' tonight not going any where cos not enough sleep last night...'' I answered ''this really mean nothing anymore to me as we hv a big argument early celebration Valentine hour :) deep i n my heart said...''

That day when i came home..around 6.00pm the first thing in my mind is rest...nothing is in my mind. Suddenly, when the front door click! i was shock!!! oppp hubby came back so early ??? in my mind, as he always finished his work quite late. He told me first words...''Happy Valentine ''. Asked me to go shower right away ...''wear the most beautiful dress'' he said..and he said he is going out to pick up the cake. ''What cake?'' i asked ...Valentine cake he answered...it seems like what happen last night had gone with the wind. I'm still in my emotion ...he said ''lets forget about it all...let go'' ...''tonight we going to have a good Valentine dinner'' he said. We have a good dinner that night at a very beautiful restaurant and deep down'' i thanks him for letting me know what i wish to know'' by his action....He is so excited and happy that evening...and it seems to me like we are back when we first met...the way he carried himself that evening....

When reach home.... after our dinner , hubby light up the candle ...gave me a Valentine card

I asked him why you are so hot in love today? he said ''i have always been, is just that i don't see his way...''

Finally, I learned something from this ..Valentine Day.

The CNY fire crackers so beautiful in the night...

deep down my heart, I misses my Father and my Mother as i watched the sparkle of the fire crackers...this 2 persons are the most valuable, loving, caring and unforgettable persons in my life. Withought them around ...something in my heart is empty they serve every Chinese New Year the most meaningful reason's for me to be around. I plan next year
this time round I will get some most beautiful flower in town to my parents resting place and go travel around CNY time...both of you will be in my heart wherever i go till we meet again in heaven in God timing, Amen.

Today....

i received an email from my beloved sister Mei, she told me to look out for the parcel she have send out from US to me for me..as A CNY GIFT!...so TOuCh..hhhh, thank you sis immediately from my heart..this voice came out, im really fortunate to have sister's...to be the youngest girl at home...and to have sister's to share and to embrace each other short comings...we learned and accept each other good and even worse, cause the most powerful of all is LOVE & BOND that will keep us all together nomatter what...

2010 CHRISTMAS:) * * A YEAR GOING TO END AND A NEW YEAR AHEAD...

Jesus, I thank you for your grace in my life...through many up and down you there for me to embrace your presence and love. Thank you for making me who iam today, thank you for all the blessings you bless me through your grace, thank you for wiping off my tears during bad times and your love when i needed most...most, thank you so much grace that change my life. I LOVE YOU JESUS :)

I WISH ...THERE WILL BE A DAY THAT NO MORE PUPPY BEEN ABANDON AND ALL DOGS WILL HAVE GOOD LOVING OWNER TO LOVE THEM, IN JESUS NAME I PRAY, AMEN.

Zoe ..

Purposely jump on top the News paper to catch my attention :-))

"pls stop the news paper man from delivering to our home, cos you have no time to catch up with the daily news '' hahahah.

on October 2010 turn four years old lady ..big girl now...time really past pretty fast ...may God bless us many more happy moment to share with Zoe and Loke - Loke .

Lately...

when i look at my little jewelry which i bought in each special occasions for the past 4 yrs ..not much but is so enjoy kind of feeling to see that i have, some nice beautiful master piece jewelry made of gold..i don't like gold before and worse i sold off 90 % all my gold jewelry away 8 yrs ago, as i got older and also the influence from my husband , he comment as a woman gold jewelry really make a woman looks feminine and beautiful plus my mother too like to wear gold ,... lately, i start to like gold jewelry, but the price so expensive now...i bought this ring ~ made of Pure gold 999, cost me RM 1118! expensive huh??? back 8-9 yrs back only i think about RM 300 can get already ...never mind lah rewarding myself with all the hard/good work i contribute for the fine whole year, is fine. Even if the price of gold suddenly drop is OK ..cos is not for an investment, is for myself right, very comfortable on my finger's, so no worry at all. Happy to owned one :-)

Next Month....

Next month, once all my stuff ARE done ...i want to plan a vacation holiday trip, i want to enjoy my life...holiday vacation is one of my best ..i love it, next u must have money , right? whahaha..so this 2 my hobby, not forget GOOD FOOD! Where to eh??? overseas??? till then will see....

Money $$$$ and its worth

..While planning my journey saving for the unpredictable future of life, I finally made up my mind go holiday ..though hubby just resigned from his present company few days ago..if to follow custom system i should count my budget , but i did it the other way round ...cos thought for a while nothing come to be more relax to have a wonderful holiday as right now...take our own sweet time..as we wish, be the boss of yr own TIME..no more catching or keep track to schedule on when to be right back to report to work, ''God ...Bless us all through out our journey this time as for many years i have not really experience the freedom of time to really let go of everything to free my mind without fear of the obligation awaiting back home almost in every trip these years, Thank you,Amen'' .

So i told myself last night, while during my journey to save and also to have financial stability / freedom ..i deserve most the best of life to pursue also what i wish beside on only what we need on everyday stuff, that way add a lot more meaning to life ..i shall have no lack or worry as HE is my shepherd~ HE Bless and Provide the best for me, Amen. Instead of tight down my budget i decided to take this opportunity to go for a relaxing trip...enjoy little here and there..to me that way ...saving served better , sweeter and more interesting of its worth! money add more value to my life..yessss , lets go :-))

Simple 4th Annyvesary...

at Ferringgi Penang...a very relax restaurant
and place to have our lunch

At Chulia Street ..a cafe called Monaliza BBQ CAFE...the workers n d boss there are so friendly..love it. Around this area a lots of fantastic good food!!!

at the cafe , Heritage Ipoh hotel...breakfast time! sit at the side of the pond....

This ikan bakar sambal cook by the Malaccan Portuguese really taste hmmm!!!....... good! ahhh


The best petai sotong!!!

A simple anniversary's simple dinner, simple trip in a simple hotel hydro Penang....very simple pictures of us...wish to paste it here, just in case i lost my memory one day..

LIVE IN THE PRESENT MOMENT

Well, as i lay back this morning ...looking out the blue sky ..cosy morning just after a rain last few hours back...looking at the very green leaf on the tree just outside my window..nice cool fresh air...suddenly, i realised something which is true but sad ... i felt that i always wish things like...example~ my vacation's coming soon... then i will be looking forward for that day to arrive ...thinking that it will be happier by then cos my dream finally come true, but this morning suddenly a very gentle voice spoke to me.. to my heart, ....'' live in the present moment..i should appreciate every moment of it'' ....waking up healthy, enjoy all things around me ...even if is my regular morning house chore..my food, my time with my puppy..things i do ...this wit of wisdom that came to me have certainly enlightened me :-) is easy to said but as i have almost forgotten i read this ...'' living in the present moment'' a book wrote by Richard Carlson, now i understand....live life to the fullest, enjoy every moment of it and try not to worry or get sad , as i don't earned anything out of it, instead tell yrself life is not too long indeed be contented with what we have instead of waiting to have before we can be happy, make and do yr best u can whatever come along the way for life is to precious...Treasure the moments in your life*

A wonderful love song...

Floating down a lovely stream of blue

Your reflection shown below

It had seemed as if time stood still

Fading image I must go

For the Gods speak to me and say...

Make haste before you die

And so I run before the sun

With thoughts of love

Silver wings help make my flight through time

A pleasure I shall never know

The angels there before the heavens light

But to touch thee never shall

It was written in the far way past

My search shall never end And so I weep and never sleep With thoughts of love

I will never gaze upon your eyes Or feel your body next to mine

All the joys of love I’ll never know I plead to you, please be kind, be kind When I reach a place of no return

Your face will fade and disappear

A misty fog encloses all my eye

A sea of darkness keeps us apart

For the Gods speak to me and say Make haste before you die

And so I run before the sun With thoughts of love I will never gaze upon your eyes Or feel your body next to mine

All the joys of love I’ll never know My thought of love will drift in time, to die I can’t reach you With thoughts of love

Family '' LOU HEI''...ON 1ST DAY OF CNY

lately.......

since after all the projects in the comitee are done then followed with house renovations...everything completed on 1st of december 09, so from then Nothing much to do now.....just felt like really go n have a real vacations ... whereby I don't need to take care of so many stuff like the past 2 years.
. mmm...at least now i earned some pocket money now in a part time job now, not much but i consider is one of GOD blessing's , ya.