Birthday greeting from hubby..

Osim leg massager for my aching foot, when walk too long..good give from hubby ..my Birthday!

..many many thanks ..is funny! the end words, cause im so meaty now , do i still look sexy huhahuha....!

Birthday Greeting from my dear 3rd Sis ..mei

Just looking at it make's me happy,

I decided to scanned and kept forever all the wonderful as well the thoughtfullness  from loving people around me and beside me, everything.. from taking their time to search a beautiful greetingcard for me and the thought's especially ..many many thanks for all the love...i will alwayssss  cherish...also the money inside ...i truly enjoyed a very good seafood treat from my sis...'' so far yet so near''.

Hope My dream will come true..

for me , i really wish to own a nice , warm and comfortable restaurant . Not long ago when i traveled to Penang, we went to a house single storey ...near ferinngi area.They served nyonya and other spicy as well as chinese food..aircondition and non aircondition, i really like it so much that i hope one day i can have a place like that for business too:)D this place seems very diffrent from any other restaurant, is not too big but very nice ..when you enter is like enter to a very nice comfortable home.

On my 5th marriage..

anniversary we went up to K.L. on the 9th .On the11th, June is our wedding annuversary, we went to shop around sungei wang area ..i traded in my old 916 gold pendant so dont need to pay so much...for a gold chain..small one lah ..but this one is 999 gold , so a little diffrent lah...(that is my gift from hubby), see save 794 RM for him cos i traded in my old 916 gold pendant to the gold shop next just paid 704 Rm only as the total amount is RM 1,498..honestly i like the chain alot..small one..i wear it on the spot.

Later we went for a very simple dinner..sad to said ...is the worse dinner i ever had in my life...the restaurant is Rasa Sayang Sharkfin house..in imbi road k.L...the dish there is no good and no quality at all...oh! the next table Chinese man around late 30's..talked so loudly and boast a lot too ... not forgotten the price definately SHARK!!! run fast...the next time u spot this place...maybe u can try this restaurant..then u know what i mean...

Deep down i wished he will give a loving card and have a quiet nice place for dinner, well maybe this is how when we are married for 5 years..hmmm but he is very nice to me after all.

.....ehmmm

just for the first time in my life,I'm so proud of myself and for the first time i really felt so,not for any great contribution to society or what, but i have for the first time make up my mind and bravely embrace the biggest break through in my life, that is contribute my love to my health..also '' Thank you to my dearest friend ..beloved Holy Spirit Of God''...I finally make IT!!!!!! no more suffering now..i earned a lot of freedom! yesss. i will reject it for the rest of my life no matter what is going to happen.

This morning..i have an urged to eat ipoh uncle laksa, went out to pack home to enjoy..

Life is beautiful .....from the moment we

wake up..Thanks God, everything we wish and we can have it..is already another very wonderful blessing's ..to me personally. .that is my own way of happiness. After had my wonderful breakfast ...read my news paper ...then have a good shower ..going to my office ..feeling real good, going to work knowing the joker drama~ Chairman, in the office is so fun!heheh ..he really a very very good joker that can make you laugh till your lung come out!really. I have a real good laugh till almost cant breath today in my office.

is miracle..nothing is impossible for the person who have faith..

today is 05th of May 2011 , is the 20th day now, from 16th April 2011. Im glad in my faith and persistence.There are some trill on and off not so often now as im so busy with my office worked lately... is good . ..for me in a way :) but certain time it did kick back to my thoughts especially at home a lone :((
I believe everything ..will be possible for anyone of us that have strong faith inside him or her :)
Thanks God .

Im so glad i made it to now...hope it will last forever..

Now and now i want to celebrate my success at least for now i made it till now...I give glory to Holy Spirit Of God HE fight it with me!!! I felt better and sleep well now . I visited my doctor today he said my hormone is weak! i got a shock! the doctor asked me to take femoston...he said it will make me feel a lot better and look so young and lovely..i have a feeling not to take it, cos i dont feel old and I'm not afraid of aging ..most important is joy and love ...if my hormone really low then let it be ..my mother dont need hormone pill...

i decided to embrace changes gracefully and happily, eat healthy and be cheerful..

Before i end my post...I thanks to The Holy One & Myself ..WE MAKE IT!!! I leave this bondage!!! my 23.5 years bondage!!! yahooooo! IS MIRACLE...I Believe.

Embracing a sudden decision .. .

I have been in it for 23.5 years..on the 16.th April 2011, i got so fed up with it, i flung it out of my life..but i encountered a lot of challenges for this few days ...especially the 1st and 2nd day ..uhhh is killing me...ahhh!!! night and morning..
Today everything seems quite ok but not better ..also not feeling well..but not very bad like on the 16th! 17!...

lets see how i will make it...for good or for worse????

Valentine 2011 Diary

On Valentine day...14/02/2011 ~2.30 am I was shock by hubby as he was not feeling well 2 days ago, i love hygiene and cleanliness...he sweat heavily and it irritates me as i could felt something sweating beside me...suddenly i woke up...and get very irritated cause i have told hubby 2 days ago i clean the bed , blanket and ext...till almost drop dead b'cos of his fever sweat and he promised me he will shift to the next room if it ever occur again ...but he did not. So he got very angry of my respond when i said '' what is this ..again'' on my side i have to go work and my daily house cleaning have already make me half drain...so plus another + i felt stressful. He went slept next room after our argument and for me i felt hurt, as i felt that he did not think of my tiredness of cleaning the home and took so much of my time each day. I went to sleep again after he change the blanket and everything on the bed to a all clean newly wash bed set. I felt dry and clean ...on the bed, cant think much as I'm already very sleepy at this type of hour...

when i woke up in the morning, i asked myself few question...am i in the wrong or not? of what happened at 2.30 am morning..naturally i felt I'm at the wrong in certain way...i shouldn't have raised my voice at him..as he doesn't want this to happen too but deep down i felt that when he got angry with me ...he too lack of something..''understanding.''

My office colleague asked me ...any celebration? I told him hubby have bought a very beautiful handbag which i like it very much ..from Singapore 2 weeks ago is my advance Valentine gift, which is true,'' tonight not going any where cos not enough sleep last night...'' I answered ''this really mean nothing anymore to me as we hv a big argument early celebration Valentine hour :) deep i n my heart said...''

That day when i came home..around 6.00pm the first thing in my mind is rest...nothing is in my mind. Suddenly, when the front door click! i was shock!!! oppp hubby came back so early ??? in my mind, as he always finished his work quite late. He told me first words...''Happy Valentine ''. Asked me to go shower right away ...''wear the most beautiful dress'' he said..and he said he is going out to pick up the cake. ''What cake?'' i asked ...Valentine cake he answered...it seems like what happen last night had gone with the wind. I'm still in my emotion ...he said ''lets forget about it all...let go'' ...''tonight we going to have a good Valentine dinner'' he said. We have a good dinner that night at a very beautiful restaurant and deep down'' i thanks him for letting me know what i wish to know'' by his action....He is so excited and happy that evening...and it seems to me like we are back when we first met...the way he carried himself that evening....

When reach home.... after our dinner , hubby light up the candle ...gave me a Valentine card

I asked him why you are so hot in love today? he said ''i have always been, is just that i don't see his way...''

Finally, I learned something from this ..Valentine Day.

The CNY fire crackers so beautiful in the night...

deep down my heart, I misses my Father and my Mother as i watched the sparkle of the fire crackers...this 2 persons are the most valuable, loving, caring and unforgettable persons in my life. Withought them around ...something in my heart is empty they serve every Chinese New Year the most meaningful reason's for me to be around. I plan next year
this time round I will get some most beautiful flower in town to my parents resting place and go travel around CNY time...both of you will be in my heart wherever i go till we meet again in heaven in God timing, Amen.

Today....

i received an email from my beloved sister Mei, she told me to look out for the parcel she have send out from US to me for me..as A CNY GIFT!...so TOuCh..hhhh, thank you sis immediately from my heart..this voice came out, im really fortunate to have sister's...to be the youngest girl at home...and to have sister's to share and to embrace each other short comings...we learned and accept each other good and even worse, cause the most powerful of all is LOVE & BOND that will keep us all together nomatter what...

2010 CHRISTMAS:) * * A YEAR GOING TO END AND A NEW YEAR AHEAD...

Jesus, I thank you for your grace in my life...through many up and down you there for me to embrace your presence and love. Thank you for making me who iam today, thank you for all the blessings you bless me through your grace, thank you for wiping off my tears during bad times and your love when i needed most...most, thank you so much grace that change my life. I LOVE YOU JESUS :)

I WISH ...THERE WILL BE A DAY THAT NO MORE PUPPY BEEN ABANDON AND ALL DOGS WILL HAVE GOOD LOVING OWNER TO LOVE THEM, IN JESUS NAME I PRAY, AMEN.

Zoe ..

Purposely jump on top the News paper to catch my attention :-))

"pls stop the news paper man from delivering to our home, cos you have no time to catch up with the daily news '' hahahah.

on October 2010 turn four years old lady ..big girl now...time really past pretty fast ...may God bless us many more happy moment to share with Zoe and Loke - Loke .

Lately...

when i look at my little jewelry which i bought in each special occasions for the past 4 yrs ..not much but is so enjoy kind of feeling to see that i have, some nice beautiful master piece jewelry made of gold..i don't like gold before and worse i sold off 90 % all my gold jewelry away 8 yrs ago, as i got older and also the influence from my husband , he comment as a woman gold jewelry really make a woman looks feminine and beautiful plus my mother too like to wear gold ,... lately, i start to like gold jewelry, but the price so expensive now...i bought this ring ~ made of Pure gold 999, cost me RM 1118! expensive huh??? back 8-9 yrs back only i think about RM 300 can get already ...never mind lah rewarding myself with all the hard/good work i contribute for the fine whole year, is fine. Even if the price of gold suddenly drop is OK ..cos is not for an investment, is for myself right, very comfortable on my finger's, so no worry at all. Happy to owned one :-)

Next Month....

Next month, once all my stuff ARE done ...i want to plan a vacation holiday trip, i want to enjoy my life...holiday vacation is one of my best ..i love it, next u must have money , right? whahaha..so this 2 my hobby, not forget GOOD FOOD! Where to eh??? overseas??? till then will see....

Money $$$$ and its worth

..While planning my journey saving for the unpredictable future of life, I finally made up my mind go holiday ..though hubby just resigned from his present company few days ago..if to follow custom system i should count my budget , but i did it the other way round ...cos thought for a while nothing come to be more relax to have a wonderful holiday as right now...take our own sweet time..as we wish, be the boss of yr own TIME..no more catching or keep track to schedule on when to be right back to report to work, ''God ...Bless us all through out our journey this time as for many years i have not really experience the freedom of time to really let go of everything to free my mind without fear of the obligation awaiting back home almost in every trip these years, Thank you,Amen'' .

So i told myself last night, while during my journey to save and also to have financial stability / freedom ..i deserve most the best of life to pursue also what i wish beside on only what we need on everyday stuff, that way add a lot more meaning to life ..i shall have no lack or worry as HE is my shepherd~ HE Bless and Provide the best for me, Amen. Instead of tight down my budget i decided to take this opportunity to go for a relaxing trip...enjoy little here and there..to me that way ...saving served better , sweeter and more interesting of its worth! money add more value to my life..yessss , lets go :-))

Simple 4th Annyvesary...

at Ferringgi Penang...a very relax restaurant
and place to have our lunch

At Chulia Street ..a cafe called Monaliza BBQ CAFE...the workers n d boss there are so friendly..love it. Around this area a lots of fantastic good food!!!

at the cafe , Heritage Ipoh hotel...breakfast time! sit at the side of the pond....

This ikan bakar sambal cook by the Malaccan Portuguese really taste hmmm!!!....... good! ahhh


The best petai sotong!!!

A simple anniversary's simple dinner, simple trip in a simple hotel hydro Penang....very simple pictures of us...wish to paste it here, just in case i lost my memory one day..

LIVE IN THE PRESENT MOMENT

Well, as i lay back this morning ...looking out the blue sky ..cosy morning just after a rain last few hours back...looking at the very green leaf on the tree just outside my window..nice cool fresh air...suddenly, i realised something which is true but sad ... i felt that i always wish things like...example~ my vacation's coming soon... then i will be looking forward for that day to arrive ...thinking that it will be happier by then cos my dream finally come true, but this morning suddenly a very gentle voice spoke to me.. to my heart, ....'' live in the present moment..i should appreciate every moment of it'' ....waking up healthy, enjoy all things around me ...even if is my regular morning house chore..my food, my time with my puppy..things i do ...this wit of wisdom that came to me have certainly enlightened me :-) is easy to said but as i have almost forgotten i read this ...'' living in the present moment'' a book wrote by Richard Carlson, now i understand....live life to the fullest, enjoy every moment of it and try not to worry or get sad , as i don't earned anything out of it, instead tell yrself life is not too long indeed be contented with what we have instead of waiting to have before we can be happy, make and do yr best u can whatever come along the way for life is to precious...Treasure the moments in your life*

A wonderful love song...

Floating down a lovely stream of blue

Your reflection shown below

It had seemed as if time stood still

Fading image I must go

For the Gods speak to me and say...

Make haste before you die

And so I run before the sun

With thoughts of love

Silver wings help make my flight through time

A pleasure I shall never know

The angels there before the heavens light

But to touch thee never shall

It was written in the far way past

My search shall never end And so I weep and never sleep With thoughts of love

I will never gaze upon your eyes Or feel your body next to mine

All the joys of love I’ll never know I plead to you, please be kind, be kind When I reach a place of no return

Your face will fade and disappear

A misty fog encloses all my eye

A sea of darkness keeps us apart

For the Gods speak to me and say Make haste before you die

And so I run before the sun With thoughts of love I will never gaze upon your eyes Or feel your body next to mine

All the joys of love I’ll never know My thought of love will drift in time, to die I can’t reach you With thoughts of love

Family '' LOU HEI''...ON 1ST DAY OF CNY

lately.......

since after all the projects in the comitee are done then followed with house renovations...everything completed on 1st of december 09, so from then Nothing much to do now.....just felt like really go n have a real vacations ... whereby I don't need to take care of so many stuff like the past 2 years.
. mmm...at least now i earned some pocket money now in a part time job now, not much but i consider is one of GOD blessing's , ya.

Budget..budget..budget

Well...a year to head ahead ....so is my budget, a fresh financial account, i will buy things that i need~ not i want...this make's a great diffrent in my budget!!!... dont know what is going or should say take place this 2010, God bless my day's to the fullest of HIS blessing's in all ways, Amen. I just bought a very simple dress for the coming CNY..the material is real cooling and very comfortable..plus dont make me look so plum..heheh..look's a little too simple plus old fashion but is ok, cant expect much as i have not lost any weight so far...wonder will i ever??? talking about weight...really got into my nerve..lost 2 kg in a week but gain 2 kg in 2 days.. One of my dream came true...that is my home..love it, next my financial dream for year 2009 came true!..THANKS GOD... THANKS... GOD THNKS GOD...Glory to HIS Name!!!!!!! HE make my dreams became reality for year 2009, Amen.

Plan to get my hair cut and rebonding..this hairstyle suit me best, 2010 no change on my hairstyle..except make it more shinier hehehe..Plan to lost kg of extra weight...this year, plan to invest wisely, plan for a healthy lifestyle and food, plan for alot of good vacations if possible, plan for a beauty makeover for myself,plan for reading bible more often , plan for my future of course ...

Merry Christmas ~ 2009 ..I'm very very dissapointed with him..., Jesus your love lead me ..

God...My prayer tonight to you......your love lead me all of life, I thank you so much that you have strengthen me in all way. Though at time's i'm drifted away but not a second i forsaken your love and my believe, for you are my Almighty God. If I'm not destined to have a husband that love me then is better to be alone ...heal all my wounds and open my eye to see thing with your wisdom. I rather be alone....Is rather to be withought then to live in having but empty in the inside. I dont need someone just to be ....but rather someone who shares and understand how i felt....In Jesus Name ..Amen.

My Home After Reconstruction :-)

* the christmas tree at our home* artificial tree , never be able to get a real one here in malaysia..hhhh my study room~

looking out from my room..breezy greens***

shining christmas tree in the night~

NAUGHTY loke-loke climb on my new soho chair

the hall...our gathering area

My little sweet home~~~~ filled with The Spirit Of Love , Joy and Peace~ Amen...Thank you Jesus.

I'm away from writing for quite some time.....due to my ..

They both never sleep together, but they did just to go tru the hassle during the hard time with us.

Zoe tired of the dust outside, came inside the room...zzzzzzz rest and sleep zzzz so shiok even with all the towel cloth and unwanted cloth on it. So peaceful she sleep zzzzzz , all of us squeeze ourselves in the study room ~ temporally as our bedroom, mmm how pity.

house renovation on 4/11/09!..leased did i expected that this renovation took that long!!! woh!!..almost a month cos the flooring tiles is the only problem. Yet, now we finally got tru it..all the hassle and trouble :-), as i always said to myself~ whatever circumstances in life there is always an end to it , matter of time~ i keep telling hubby this when we face major problem on our floor tiles reconstruction , now see...everything is nice and settled, ...Zoe, Loke- Loke, hubby and me , we really gone tru all the hassle and trouble last month till 31/11/09 all complete no matter how hard it is, now we really enjoyed our new home structure as well some add up new deco!..i always believe in persistence will help you get tru all kinds of hassle in life. God bless me a wonderful home , though is little but is sweet , warmed and filled with Love :-) HE ( GOD) is always there inside me....Praise & Thanks to HIM.

Today....

hubby and me we went to have our lunch and plan to shop or hunt around for something i wish to have....a cabinet or rack that contain a lot of drawer !..to keep all our tiny stuff inside. Finally, we reach Tampoi, after our lunch, we went to a malay kayu jati shop, there they sell all kinds of kayu jati furniture..the price is a little expensive but if to compare from those high class shopping ~ kayu Jati furniture , the price are 30 to 40 % lower here, cos this shop they display their 's in a hut hehehe. I tell you if you see this piece of work you wouldnt thought can found in this kind of hut..ya. I quite like the T.V. rack ...thinking now whether to purchase it or not, it contain 8 ! drawer, fine carve handwork, 100% kayu Jati ...the damage i ..it cost RM 1,650 ..INCLUDED DELIVERY from Tampoi to my house , which is quite far and i told them already... they need to climb staircase!...too, the boss have agreed, well is reasonable to me as his response is fine. hmmm see how now , to buy or not ??????

Next then, one of a nuisance committee keep calling me this few days knowing that i'm busy with my house lately ...especially now the flooring tiles are giving me big problem that still unsolved, heck ! keparat this committee man keep asking me to go to the management office ...call me just ..showing his unhappiness to me over the phone...cos i did not hew him , knowing that i'm not free and still keep wanting to see me!..syco!!! choi koi tou me tak han!..

Back to my TV rack, i think is worth to invest in something like this ...the wood so solid..good ..it going to last me to the day i leave the world!..and wont be out of date , this kind of furniture, will see how, calculate my budget properly..or else i make myself poorer by the end of this month as the renovation already cost so much.

DAYS....of dust it..

seems to me going to be over, as today the flooring is completely done! all 3 rooms is done!! so is my hall, reconstructing or should say change of floor tiles are the most painful experience that i encounter for this few days, the most dusty among all other renovation, why see yourself ....the cutting of porcelain tiles ..especially mine i used the wider tiles !...huh! the dust and noise is killing my ear, i truly very pity the middle age Bangladesh man inside this video, he is dark and thin, wearing blue shirt...very diligent, he have to cut the tiles , grin the floor make holes and patches for the new tiles to put on...after this few days i seen with my own eye..only i know how hard it is to change tiles for flooring, while he also patch all the side wall tiles for my home, he assist the Chinese sifu ...this Chinese man only do the patching of tiles for my home as he is expert on this..to also ensure that that the tiles are all balance , while all the other odd job done by this Bangladesh man the one that is squatting in my room patching the side tiles...i seen him this few days have inhale lots of toxin chemical and fine dust into his body, i truly pity him, now i really see my own eye how hard these foreigner earn their hard earn money in our country, really. If i ever see him again i will give him a '' hong pao'' he deserve it, really. ..when he leave today , i was so busy with other stuff and so tired, i forgot to give him what i wish to give him..he really did a very good job ..much better then the Chinese sifu .I have seen how all the worker's hard work and sacrifice even on their health for doing the recontructin work ... I will always treasure my home * :-)